mo·nog·a·my

1. The practice or condition of having a single sexual partner during a period of time.

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The one thing I will not compromise is monogamy.

I have no doubts.. and believe 110% that He hasn't fucked anyone since March. I don't believe it because I want to - more so because I just do. I've trusted my dreams and intuition a lot in the past five months.. and they tell me His cock is clean.

What I do have doubts on is His ability to remain monogamous in the future. Not next week or two weeks away - but two years, 4 years, ten years from now. Of course, it is as esy to assume that *I* could be the one to stray from the relationship too.

So.. to heal from that doubt.. to banish it.. to trust once more that 110%.. I've been saying to myself over and over again ... "I trust Him 110%"... it's kind of become a little mantra for me... mind over matter - right?

He'll say I beat the issue of monogamy into the ground - but no - if it is something I feel that strongly about.. the issue shouldn't even be an issue. It just *is* - not even up for conversation... yanno?

but on the other hand.. His need for a poly relationship seems insignifcant and unfathomable to me... and to Him, it just *is*...

So.. I'd be a fool to think we could ever reach a middle ground on that.

Two people can be different and have a great relationship - cuz opposites atrract..

But.. two people with different views of how and what a relationship is..

... do they survive?

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